Honesty Kills Ego and Humble's a Boy

I am suppose to fast DOTA for 2 months. Let me get straight to the point. I failed today. I when out with my friend for lunch and we when and play DOTA today! The day that I'll be seeing my friends and family in church for KLTI. THIS IS THE day that I forgot about KLTI and played DOTA all evening to night (Last weekmy mom when for camp so took opportunity and when out DOTA all night until forgot about KLTI). Exact day! This time, I remembered about KLTI. Came back home "early" to finish up my home work which I haven't touched at all.

I normally like to share and be honest by typing it out. Well, if you ask me to share 1 on 1 is harder than typing out. But, to those who know me, any where, any time, I'll just try my best to be honest and sincere with everyone.

I just want to be accountable and apologize to Eddy and Kenneth for actually "breaking the rule" of our fast. I'm sorry. I will continue to fast. My self-control died some where near college. Yes! I when horrus today and played for 3 hours and 5 minutes or so. I've sinned. My pledge to fast, my pledge to my friends, and to my mom. I'm not a good boy. I'm a sinner. I wonder some times, why people find it so easy NOT to be addicted in these kind of cyber games? Why some people are just NOT interested?

There's this saying I think James created. Some babies are born with text books in their hands, some with musical instrument, but for me and him, we're born with a joystick in our hands. XD Well, I got to admit it I love any kind of games. It's fun! And I can say I'm pretty good at it. BUT not at other things like studies, or great music, etc.

Once again, coming before God to ask for forgiveness and repentance. *sigh* >.<" Busted again!

Comments

Christine Law said…
When you confess your sin and repent, God is faithful to forgive! ;)

Nyway, I salute you for your openness and honesty!! Not many people can do that :)
9:28 PM
JoshTong said…
Thanks alot. I didn't know you read my blog so "often" wan. *gulp* must not write so much inside stuff alrd. hohoho... just kidding. XP

Anyway, thanks...
2:23 AM
Anonymous said…
Hi Josh... I agree with Christine. God will forgive you when you repent and turn to HIM.

You know what, as I read your post... The picture of the Israelites in the book of Judges came into my mind...

Not to scare you but to remind. There may be consequences for that.

And also brother... we will keep praying for you
2:38 PM
Simon said…
hey joker.

just to let you know i am blessed by your honesty. your willingness to reveal your faults is a great strength of character. many christians i know, struggle in sin silently, all because of pride.

you know how God works, it's never a place of fear or condemnation. He will sit you down in a quiet place, when you are totally at home, and you feel His patience and love, even in a place of rebuke. You will feel Him as if He was right in front of you. He call you by name, and remind you of the person He made you to be.

You're His precious. Never stop being broken and contrite before Him k? God bless
7:30 PM
JoshTong said…
Thanks eD. Ya, scary abit.

Thanks Simon, I personally am encouraged by you sharing to me. Thanks alot.

Thanks Eileen.

Appreciate all your comments! Thanks you all so much. Thank you for encouraging me.
12:30 AM
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