Still I will sing to you

Congratulations to my brudder, Jason who just got hand-cuffed, I mean..... engaged with Adrene yesterday, 25th Dec. And now, go get a nest and lay eggs... *shoo shoo*... xD P.S. But first give me the Kenari (including the CD player and speakers) and then get a bigger family car for yourself. Thanks!

I'm getting quite use to what I'm doing now. I enjoy teaching them. The hardest part is trying to get a cab from house to house. Once I'm there already, all the hassle just seem to subside and it is such a joy watching them play and improving. I just need a car!! I guess I would want to continue teaching some of them that really want to learn, when I come back from Cambodia. Didn't know reading is that enjoyable! Never actually read so much in my entire life! (Until my light bulb in my room fused!!) Hard to believe, but yea! Just bought 3 great books. 1. Drawing Near - John Bevere 2. The way of the Wild Heart - John Eldredge 3. Boy meets girl - Joshua Harris Glad sounds just opened in 1 Utama last Saturday and their having a sale up to 24th Dec. I bought "The way of the Wild Heart" and "Drawing Near" from them. Currently haven't finish reading "Life beneath the surface" by Mike Pilavachi. And this is a little something:- I'll probab...

Yesterday, just went to the curve to spend time with God. It was a blast! God just met with me there. First stop was Starbucks! I went in and bought a cup of HOT cappucino. I have to admit that, it wasn't really nice. Must I add sugar to it? I wanted a cold one!! I forgot to ask for an iced cappucino or ice-blended or whatever. Ok, drinks aside. I started off reading the book of John continued from where I stopped at chapter 9. I just asked the Holy Spirit to teach me and show me God's heart for me. And as I read, I was deeply moved when Jesus was deeply moved by Lazarus's death that He actually wept! I never felt that emotions before. I normally just read it as it is. And I realize that Jesus is a man that's full of emotions and He displayed it to men. John 11:33,35,38 The Father told Jesus What To Say and How To Say It. John 12:49 That's just amazing. Many times I find myself asking God, "Father, what to say in differing situations?" Then now I realize I...

I guess I'm not used to it yet. I always thought working life is easier than studying life. I was wrong... Missing class is not as serious as missing work. Late for class is not as bad as late for work. I don't have class every day but I do have work everyday. I don't have to talk in class, but I have to communicate well at work. I'm a whimp!! ahaha... 45 minutes class only and I'm already feeling tired. Taxi there, have class and taxi back, the whole process will probably take 1 hour 30 minutes. Oh my! 17 more classes to go in December!! I rather just be a bum!! =D

Wow, a job just pop up to me... I was just asking God what am I gonna do in Dec. Maybe be a bum. Oh well, God just opened a door for me to teach a 12 going 13 year old boy guitar. Almost every week day in Dec. Most of the days is in the morning 10am. That means wake up 8:50am most of the days to get ready and to get public transport. Spells DISCIPLINE!! Oh well, this is great... Getting paid to do something I like doing, plus learning some discipline before going to Cambodia. At least not being that much of a bum la... Hehehe. I think He knew I was going to be a bum and spend my mom's money like water if I don't do something eventful and worth while and understand how hard it is to earn a buck! Well, He didn't literally kicked my butt and force me to accept the offer, but He did dangle the offer in front of my face. Maybe even saying, "Grow up! Time to learn what's it like to work and be consistent." Thanks God, Appreciate it!

Still remember the day You called me, son; How can I forget You Dad. Though I run I cannot hide from myself, and You Where can I run, Where can I hide, Where can I go, away from You Feel alone there's no one by my side, Where were You all this while? Tried to forget and leave You out of mind, in time. Sounds negative at first, until I discovered the positive truth in it. And then begin to be thankful to God.

Worship is for Him, to Him and about Him. And a little part of it, about us. Worship is life, our lives should be a reflection of our worship to Him. The foundation of leading people in worship in song, is our worship-life. Men can not worship God and not change to be more like Him. "We will become more like who we worship." Can we come to a place where we can worship/love God so much that when we look at the people who are needy and poor, we can just ignore them? Can we really love God and be so close to Him and just ignore the child by the roadside naked and hungry? Can we truly sing songs like "we must go, LIVE to feed the hungry?". Live to care about what Jesus cares for, to love what Jesus loves, and to walk where He wants us to walk? Are we living a life that reflects God and His ways? Who is reflected in your life? What is reflected in your life? We can surely be the salt and light if we truly worship Him. Then it's not really that hard for people to know...

It's her alright... Trust me! I found it in U-tube. The music is LIVE O-cas-tra!! Forgive them, their young and adorable playing orchastra instruments. Check this out. P.S. Sorry I don't know how to put the video up in my blog. sigh. So here's the URL. ;P (Presenting Megan Mak) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rvo7HzklvrM And a side clip, John Mayer rAwKz "NEON" (ACOUSTIC version). For all you guitar fReAkZ out there! You MUST WATCH THIS!! Even you Reuben!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AzsEzD2fVwE&mode=related&search= Please teach me how does he slaps the bass strings and plucks the melody line at the same time. Off time playing + Off time singing = GG.

Is Christ my priority? Yea, that's a big question to ask myself. I'm constantly tested on that question. Is He truly my priority? Is He all and in all? To know Him and to be known by Him, My one desire, To gaze at His beauty, My heart overwhelms with praises, To know and truly know the extend of His love for me, Why do I still want to sin? We are constantly feeding ourselves everyday, Are we feeding on junk and 'chickedies'? Or are we feeding ourselves with good stuff? Are we living an appropriate life? The life that is worthy of His death? Are we different, are we unique ? Are we reflecting Christ in all that we 'are'? Who we are, reflects what we do. Who does the world see when they look at you? If our perception of God determines how we act, Do we know our God? Is He mighty to save, Loving Father, Closest Friend, or a statue that is only sitting there and when we feel like it, we go to the corner where we place Him and then put our sticks of incense to feel g...

What is our perception of God? Is He loving? Is He kind? Merciful? Graceful? I thought I knew Crist. I thought my perception of God was right. Well, it was, logically. I knew God as... quite a small God. I knew all the right answers and the wrong answers too. But my perception of some aspects of God I haven't fully comprehand and understand. Until the day, God unveil my eyes to see Him as a loving Father. Until the point where I really feel God loves me so much. He forgaved me and wants to set me free from my sins. Putting me into the Kingdom of His Son. If I see God big, I am more likely to embrace and to live big! But if I always perceive God as a small and weak God, then I'll probably live like that. We are made in the likeness of Him and called to live to enforce the kingdom of God. Our perception of God will result in what we do and how we live our lives.

He is my Father... He really loves me, He cares so much that He disciplines me, Not letting me continue to dwell in sin, Giving me a hope and a destiny. He called me from darkness into His light, He is way more loving than I thought of, He is way more forgiving and full of mercy and grace, He is Abba. Where can I run from myself, Where can I run from You? Let not my heart be hard and cold, Holy Spirit take control. "A Father to the orphans, A healer to the broken, He brings peace to our madness, And comfort in our sadness," "This is our God..."

Healthy Spiritually, Healthy Physically. Some thing that I actually found out. I tend to naturally want to be healthier physically when I am healthy spiritually. I find myself wanting to buy Multi vitamins, going to go to gym RM50 in ss2, wanting to jog, slowly watching my diet and exercising more in general. It's linked and it's one. My physical and spiritual and mental. Now with my new computer, I'm able to go online again! Thank GOD! I was wondering how am I going to do the worship team schedules, college assignment, and check my mails... But actually, I don't have microsoft office therefore no Word and Excel. So, I can't really do schedule and assignments anyway. I'm just checking mails. There is always the temptation to take back my WarCraft CD from Desmond and install it into my new computer which I am using now. Sigh... Now with the faster speed and wider screen, it just promises a fresher and more exciting feel of the game, DOTA. Thank God, in LF few hou...

So long since I've blogged. Many things happen lately. Many personal changes and many things to learn and have learned. Too many things to blog about and so little time. But since I have 15mins in my com lab now before the next class starts, I'll just share some of my thoughts. I'm currently reading the book of Matthew to start a regular habit of bible reading and quiet time with God every night. It's been great. Some thing that caught my eye as I was reading the part where it says seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you. And earlier it was talking about things that we shouldn't be worried about ie. clothes, food, etc. Well, I experienced a glimps of that. As I keep my eyes on Jesus and His words, and slowly developing an awareness of Him, things just fall into place. Yesterday night as I was reading, my mom just came in and told me that she has already talked to my bro about 2 things which is the table light for...

Now, firstly... I just wana thank GOD my LORD and Saviour, Jesus Christ for helping me and giving me wisdom to not fail 3 of my papers for last semester. Which is Business Stats (failed once), Management Accounting, and Human Resource Management. Thank you!! Now into the future, 3 more subjects to go and then........ wat?? sigh... I don't know what I want. I don't know what I'll become. I'm not sure of this 'one giant leap' I have to take soon (next year). It's a new phase in my life, I don't know what to expect... So... Lord, what now??

Leaving it to God makes me feel uncomfortable most of the time. It means I do my part and let God do the rest. I always want to be in control of my surroundings and to make sure everything goes well and smooth all the time. BUT....... It was a scary Sunday morning. My guitar string broke, and Raj's guitar string broke too. I taught it shouldn't be a problem without the acoustic guitar. Well, it wasn't REALLY a BIG problem. But hei, to be honest, I felt awkward without my guitar. To me, the "worship with music" wasn't really going well. Overall it felt like it's going down the nigara falls. Well, it was quite a depressing Sunday for me, at least for the first half of the day. Just felt the devil wispering stuff to me like "you did really bad on stage, you messed up!", "you couldn't worship and the team is all over", "people are unable to focus on Jesus. Look at you, you're all nervous and tensed up!". I, being so down j...

Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone... Please come back home... Please come back home... Please come back home... Please come back home... [Fort Minor] God speaks in amazing ways... *Trust me.

It's been great hanging out in KDD today. We just brought more food there and they cooked for us! We didn't expect it... The food was great! We actually have double the size of ppl that went this time and there were more ppl that wana come along but I think 6 ppl there would be ideal. Max 8... The heart is not to limit the people or to make this an exclusive club, but to actually just catch the heart of Jesus for the lost and the poor and needy and GO to where they are to bless and let justice roll on like a river and righteousness like a never ending stream. I think there are TOO many people out there that we can bless and do the same like what we're doing in KDD. And even in KDD, there are so many more houses that haven't been touched by the love of Christ yet. Basically it boils down to a few fundamental things. When no one is watching, in the secret place where only you and God knows what's going in your mind and heart, would we still want to get out of our comf...

A little bit about our trip to Kampung Damansara Dalam. Those who went: -Me -Si Ming -Erb Brothers (josh & joel) We just went there to give away some shoes. And we ended up giving up all 5 pairs of shoes to the workers there. We just came to one house and went in and gave out the shoes, they invited us in. We chat for some time and got to know them better. They are going to have their dinner, we went to Kanna Curry House to get some food and brought it to their house. God hold the rain for us coz only after we enter the hut, the rain poured heavily as we were having lotsa fun sharing food and eating together. I just felt God was there too... It was awesome, we had such a good time there. After we finish our dinner we just spend some more time talking and singing. Then, they allowed us to just pray for one of the woman there that has a sore throat. After praying and spending more time with them, the rain started to cool down. Then we headed back home. They invited us back there agai...

Wow... It was a great time at Pudu today. I was just having a great time spending it with the people in "KAWAN" a place where we just went to hang out with the people there and see what God's doing in K.L. I caught a glimps of God's heart for the poor and needy. I just felt God was there with them as we enthrone and proclaim Christ as King in that place. Before I went there I was meditating on Isaiah 58. I love this chapter in Isaiah. It talks about true fasting and what kind of fast that the Lord wants, - to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke. To share your food with the hungry and provide the poor wanderer with shelther. Clothe the naked, do away with the pointing finger and malicious talk, spending ourselves in behalf of the hungry, satisfy the needs of the oppressed. And note how much promises if we do that: 1. Then your light will break forth like the dawn 2. and your healing will quickl...

Well it's been quite a while since my last post. I came to a stage I really don't know what to write alrd. But well, now I got something and I think, "why not share it?" I think it's gona take a few parts in this topic. I'm slowly discovering what it really means to be a Christian. To really 'Be-living' in what I 'believe' in. A little of what I am going through and what God is showing me and teaching me these days. Affirmation/Encouragement If there's one thing I'm learning now is to think positive and not only let it remain as a thought, but to speak affirmation and encouragement to others. I'm not a natural 'positive thinking' person. There are, if I can call it "awkward moments" in my conversation with people that I'm not that close too. But that doesn't really matter. Why can't I overlook the flaws and the differences and be an encouragement to others? So much to learn from Jesus. Sometimes I am ju...

Just going through the weeks and I find myself thinking about patience and prayed the 'silly' prayer to God asking Him to teach me patience. Boy, did He taught me well!! Definition: The effort or will, not to pick up anger or frustration and let one's emotions run wild in any given situation. "Patience is a verb, not a noun". Much is spoken about patience throughout the Holy Book, and I wana share some thoughts here. 1) Proverbs 15:18 - "... but a patient man calms a quarrel" 2) Galatians 5:22 - Speaks about Patience as one of the Fruit of the Spirit 3) 1 Corinthians 13:4 - Note the First thing Paul talks about love:- "Love is Patience ...." 4) 1 Thessolonians 5:14 - Be Patient with everyone Another note is, I tried asking God, "I want patience... NOW". Err... That didn't work. ya... That brings me to my point which is: Patience needs time to develop. It ain't a theory. It has to be lived out and put on the spot most of the ti...

January starts a new year Of things I won't forget Following the foots steps of Another With no clue to what's ahead Where can I run that You don't find me Where can I hide myself from shame Into the deepest of oceans? Or to the highest of mountains? You found me where I am You stop by and lend a hand Moving on I will remember To let go my December Things are not what I perceive to be Lean back and enjoy the grapes Growing up is never easy All I can say is "Spirit, help me" Where can I run from my destiny Where can I hide my face from pain Is this what You've called me for? Now I'm in the "lost YET found" box Coz You've found me where I am You drop by and lend a hand Moving on I will remember To let go of my December Moving on I must remember To let go of my December December here is talking about my childish ways. God is teaching me to grow-UP and growing up = more responsibilities, stress (sometimes), prioritizing, and doing grown up stuff....

Well, first things first... I didn't get to try uncle Jack's famost Coffee, Nasi Lemak and Toast bun!! ok... The trip to klg was wonderful. It's cool to take bus alone myself, waking up at 6am going to pudu and take a large bus (with 8 ppl inside only) to klg that took approximately 4 hours. The bus fee was RM19:30. Much cheaper to take a bus there than the train that would cost RM29 or to drive which will probably cost about RM35 for toll and half a tank of petrol depending on what car you drive. That = alot of money to drive down ONE WAY! Initially I was quite nervous to go alone, but the experience was fun. Reached there, my faithful brudder Ern Yi picked me up from the bus stop and just made me feel so at home and even paid for my lunch there as I was a "guest" in Klg. I ate at Barnie's (what a name) which speciallizes in European/Western kinda food. The food there was great! On that same day I ate there twice. Everywhere you wana go in Kluang you can use ...

I think I like my photo at my blog here. Soon it'll change into something like a VCD seller Ah Beng² look. Will probably upload a photo if I ever have a digi cam or some one could help me on this. Oh well, this is a little something that I found, I think it's cool: Well, only now I can put this picture up as I've vowed to quit DOTA!! Forever-ever... I really thank God for His grace to help me quit this addiction. Is like the longing for that 'drug' isn't there anymore. Thanks to my friends who help me and encourage me not to go and not to tempt me too. And mostly thanks to Him who actually make this "say no to DOTA" thing ever come true in my life. So now nothing to do... An chua ho? What to do? Apa boleh buat? Tim miong hou? Mai VCD lor... XD Buy 2 free 1/2 Buy 3 free 1 Latest release: -Ah Loong bukit beruntung VCD 9 Featuring : Ah Loong, Ah Boon, & Fei Chai Tuck - National Geogr 'apek ' DVD 10 Featuring : Ah Loong & Tiny Starring : A...

I was actually grumbling that my friends didn't invite me for lunch today. Little did I know that God has actually planned it all out for me alrd. I was messaging a friend and venting my frustration during class as I was so hungry. At last! My class ended at 2pm when all my friends have finished their lunches and go back to work, I was with my class mates and we all when for lunch together near my college there. After finish lunch, I normally follow my friend "Edmund" as he is so nice to fetch me home almost every time after classes. BUT, at lunch I just ask Chun Kit (my other friend) to fetch me back. Not knowing what God has planned for him and me. So, lunch ended and we both were thinking of what to do next... Well, since we really got nothing to do and I didn't wana suggest we go play some computer games and he actually knows that I quit alrd (but I was really tempted to suggest we go for ONE game as he is a great player, one of Malaysia's best!) but thank God...