Life as a "Christian"
I told God, "Lord, help me worship You in everything I do, not only in "times of worship" in church." That basically means being a good example of Christ to people 'out there' and in church. Everything I do reflects God my maker. The way I spend my money, time, skipping college and asking people to take attendance for me is one way to dishonor God's name. (repent, repent, just did that today) :'(
Currently I feel sick and tired. I think I slept too much alrd today. (sigh) I believe God wants to do something in my life. God wants to do something for our youth in CLGC. It's only for us to take hold of what He has planned and live it out. The ball is in our court now. What are we doing about it? Are we going to live life the same? Are we not going to change for the better? Are we just going to say let God change us while we just sit back and relax? Are we going to go all out and do do do do everything that we think should be done? It all comes down to a balance between doing something and having the heart then only do. (I dunno what does it got to do with me being sick :P ) I hate feeling sick. Cough and tiredness kills me by the second.
My conclusion is, life as a christian is HARD and never easy. What I have to do in the tough times is to find God there and to find rest in Him only then I can really rest. So many things I know but the knowledge just doesn't come out in action. Have you experience what I'm saying here?? My head is full of knowledge that is where I when wrong. The knowledge hasn't come down to the heart. The problem with "long time" christian is that they know so many stuff in their heads. Like me... Arghh... I'm feeling really lousy today. Don't know why. Sigh...
So many things to do, KLTI work, college assignments, study, honestly - spend time with God. Spending time with God also require something of me. If I'm honest enough, I know that some times, is not that I want to spend time with God, more like I must for some occasions/reasons. Some times I force myself to pick up the Bible and read or worship Him. I must discipline myself in this manner. If you tell me, I need to have the heart if not you spend time with God with the wrong attitude also no point, is in vain, or Joshua, you can't keep on doing things, must not force or push or conjure something up. Well, honestly, if I'm conjuring or making something up myself, just slap me on the face really hard. I NEVER I HATE actually to conjure or to make something up or hype people up to do something or anything like that. And this is how I discipline myself, although I don't feel like doing something, I do it first, then after some time it God might give me a heart for it while I'm doing I ask God for the heart to do something. Some times I get it wrong, sometimes I might conjure or hype up something without me noticing also. That's why, I need you friends to slap me out of it if I'm doing so. :) Because I HATE and DISPISE conjuring something up that is not of God to hype or to make people feel better or feel bad that's why I need help on keeping me in check or in the look out for me if I do something like that. Thanks for your help!
Feeling lousy dunno why. Sleep too much? Eat to little? Sick? Dunno la. sigh...
Currently I feel sick and tired. I think I slept too much alrd today. (sigh) I believe God wants to do something in my life. God wants to do something for our youth in CLGC. It's only for us to take hold of what He has planned and live it out. The ball is in our court now. What are we doing about it? Are we going to live life the same? Are we not going to change for the better? Are we just going to say let God change us while we just sit back and relax? Are we going to go all out and do do do do everything that we think should be done? It all comes down to a balance between doing something and having the heart then only do. (I dunno what does it got to do with me being sick :P ) I hate feeling sick. Cough and tiredness kills me by the second.
My conclusion is, life as a christian is HARD and never easy. What I have to do in the tough times is to find God there and to find rest in Him only then I can really rest. So many things I know but the knowledge just doesn't come out in action. Have you experience what I'm saying here?? My head is full of knowledge that is where I when wrong. The knowledge hasn't come down to the heart. The problem with "long time" christian is that they know so many stuff in their heads. Like me... Arghh... I'm feeling really lousy today. Don't know why. Sigh...
So many things to do, KLTI work, college assignments, study, honestly - spend time with God. Spending time with God also require something of me. If I'm honest enough, I know that some times, is not that I want to spend time with God, more like I must for some occasions/reasons. Some times I force myself to pick up the Bible and read or worship Him. I must discipline myself in this manner. If you tell me, I need to have the heart if not you spend time with God with the wrong attitude also no point, is in vain, or Joshua, you can't keep on doing things, must not force or push or conjure something up. Well, honestly, if I'm conjuring or making something up myself, just slap me on the face really hard. I NEVER I HATE actually to conjure or to make something up or hype people up to do something or anything like that. And this is how I discipline myself, although I don't feel like doing something, I do it first, then after some time it God might give me a heart for it while I'm doing I ask God for the heart to do something. Some times I get it wrong, sometimes I might conjure or hype up something without me noticing also. That's why, I need you friends to slap me out of it if I'm doing so. :) Because I HATE and DISPISE conjuring something up that is not of God to hype or to make people feel better or feel bad that's why I need help on keeping me in check or in the look out for me if I do something like that. Thanks for your help!
Feeling lousy dunno why. Sleep too much? Eat to little? Sick? Dunno la. sigh...
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