Sovereign God, Over All

Leaving it to God makes me feel uncomfortable most of the time. It means I do my part and let God do the rest. I always want to be in control of my surroundings and to make sure everything goes well and smooth all the time. BUT.......

It was a scary Sunday morning. My guitar string broke, and Raj's guitar string broke too. I taught it shouldn't be a problem without the acoustic guitar. Well, it wasn't REALLY a BIG problem. But hei, to be honest, I felt awkward without my guitar.
To me, the "worship with music" wasn't really going well. Overall it felt like it's going down the nigara falls.

Well, it was quite a depressing Sunday for me, at least for the first half of the day. Just felt the devil wispering stuff to me like "you did really bad on stage, you messed up!", "you couldn't worship and the team is all over", "people are unable to focus on Jesus. Look at you, you're all nervous and tensed up!".
I, being so down just agreed with the devil and dwell on my pity party session... For a while. Then I decided to just stand on the truth and talk to God about it. I told him I just want to worship Him with everything I got and if it means looking foolish in front of everyone, so be it. As long as I gave Him all I got in an attitude of worship and praise to Him my King, no regrets.

This is one of those times as a worship leader I go, "aww man, I messed up again" kinda feeling, you know what I mean?? =.=" [...... silence]. Well anyway, later in the day I ask a friend of mine. "So... How did you find the worship in music this morning?", reply: "I think it's good. And oh, this girl told me that she feels this morning's worship was one of the best she had". O.o" [puzzled feeling]
Later that evening, 2 smses came from 2 different people encouraging me as God met with them and they were blessed. O.O" [Lagi puzzled]

Nah, I'm not here to tell you how great I did nor am I here to self praise myself. In fact I still feel a little crappy. But I just want to tell of God's sovereignity in every situation and how God cannot be put into a box or a formula. He is the Sovereign God, Over All. I'm encouraged and assured to know that. Less pressure!!

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