My day at the Curve with Dad
Yesterday, just went to the curve to spend time with God.
It was a blast! God just met with me there.
First stop was Starbucks!
I went in and bought a cup of HOT cappucino. I have to admit that, it wasn't really nice. Must I add sugar to it? I wanted a cold one!! I forgot to ask for an iced cappucino or ice-blended or whatever.
Ok, drinks aside. I started off reading the book of John continued from where I stopped at chapter 9. I just asked the Holy Spirit to teach me and show me God's heart for me. And as I read, I was deeply moved when Jesus was deeply moved by Lazarus's death that He actually wept! I never felt that emotions before. I normally just read it as it is. And I realize that Jesus is a man that's full of emotions and He displayed it to men. John 11:33,35,38
The Father told Jesus What To Say and How To Say It. John 12:49
That's just amazing. Many times I find myself asking God, "Father, what to say in differing situations?" Then now I realize I should also ask the follow-up question. "Father, how do I convey it?" Many times we have good intentions in our hearts but the hardest part is to convey the message as well as possible. But here, the Father teaches the Son, and now we have the Holy Spirit to teach us "all things"!! When Jesus was alive on earth, He was one man, one place. But now with the Holy Spirit, He can be at all place, at all times. In our hearts, if we want, we can ask the Holy Spirit to teach us anything and everything and also what to say and how to say it.
As I was reading, many instances I really feel the Father through Jesus (His role model Son) really loved men. He loved men so much and many things that Jesus did, it was for the benefit of the people around Him.
Chapter 14 was the killer for me. Here I am in Starbucks trying to "tahan hansem" coz my eyes were getting wattery and all. It was just a revelation of the Father's love through His word. I couldn't sit there and read on, so I just walked to the highest floor of the curve (less ppl) and sat there. God just met with me there.
God just opened my eyes to 2 things.
1. He told me that in those times of 'awkwardness', horrible times, and stressful times, He was there. And because He was there and He created a way out for me already, I know He is cheering me on like "Come on Josh, I know you can do it! I know you can because I am there, Daddy is here and I've created a way out for you already. I know you can do it, you're My son. Remember when you were arguing with your mom? I was there. Remember that time when you were outrightly shot? I was there. Remember that time when you were cryin in your bedroom? Yes, Daddy was there. And because I was there, I felt your pain and I knew what you were going through. I know you, son. And because I was there, and have created a way out, I know you can go through those times, coz Daddy's holding your arm." No words to express except tears that just flow continously from my eyes. What a way to approve and to initiate His son.
2. Father just downloaded this motion picture to my mind of a baby who is walking around then suddenly falls into the mud coz he's still unstable in walking. Then the Father picked him up, saying "it's ok, it's alright now, lets just take a shower and get you clean. Alright now, lets give it another shot, here we go. This time I'll hold your hand tighter and I'll catch you before you fall into the mud. Yea, I'm leading you there, I'm allowing you to go through it. But I know you can, and even if you fall, I'll catch you in time. But if you decide to roll off my hands and fall into the mud, then we'll just have to go wash up or take a bathe and maybe try again tomorrow, yea?" The understanding of His love, just blew my mind for a minute. Just makes me more confident while walking through the muddy places of my life. I can do all things, through Christ who strenghtens me. It gives me a deeper understanding when I fall/sin, that Daddy is there to pick me up and cheer me on and say "well done, it's alright, lets try again." And with that understanding, I really wouldn't want to hurt His heart by continue to dwell in the mud.
I always forget to look at Daddy, and see myself in Him. My identity, in Him. My reflection when I look at Him. And I pray that I maybe a mirror, that He would scrub me and polish it clean to the point where He can truely see Himself reflected clearly in that mirror.
P.S. I only accomplished to read chapter 9-14. 6 Chapters!! My goal was to finish John. =.=" LOL
It was a blast! God just met with me there.
First stop was Starbucks!
I went in and bought a cup of HOT cappucino. I have to admit that, it wasn't really nice. Must I add sugar to it? I wanted a cold one!! I forgot to ask for an iced cappucino or ice-blended or whatever.
Ok, drinks aside. I started off reading the book of John continued from where I stopped at chapter 9. I just asked the Holy Spirit to teach me and show me God's heart for me. And as I read, I was deeply moved when Jesus was deeply moved by Lazarus's death that He actually wept! I never felt that emotions before. I normally just read it as it is. And I realize that Jesus is a man that's full of emotions and He displayed it to men. John 11:33,35,38
The Father told Jesus What To Say and How To Say It. John 12:49
That's just amazing. Many times I find myself asking God, "Father, what to say in differing situations?" Then now I realize I should also ask the follow-up question. "Father, how do I convey it?" Many times we have good intentions in our hearts but the hardest part is to convey the message as well as possible. But here, the Father teaches the Son, and now we have the Holy Spirit to teach us "all things"!! When Jesus was alive on earth, He was one man, one place. But now with the Holy Spirit, He can be at all place, at all times. In our hearts, if we want, we can ask the Holy Spirit to teach us anything and everything and also what to say and how to say it.
As I was reading, many instances I really feel the Father through Jesus (His role model Son) really loved men. He loved men so much and many things that Jesus did, it was for the benefit of the people around Him.
Chapter 14 was the killer for me. Here I am in Starbucks trying to "tahan hansem" coz my eyes were getting wattery and all. It was just a revelation of the Father's love through His word. I couldn't sit there and read on, so I just walked to the highest floor of the curve (less ppl) and sat there. God just met with me there.
God just opened my eyes to 2 things.
1. He told me that in those times of 'awkwardness', horrible times, and stressful times, He was there. And because He was there and He created a way out for me already, I know He is cheering me on like "Come on Josh, I know you can do it! I know you can because I am there, Daddy is here and I've created a way out for you already. I know you can do it, you're My son. Remember when you were arguing with your mom? I was there. Remember that time when you were outrightly shot? I was there. Remember that time when you were cryin in your bedroom? Yes, Daddy was there. And because I was there, I felt your pain and I knew what you were going through. I know you, son. And because I was there, and have created a way out, I know you can go through those times, coz Daddy's holding your arm." No words to express except tears that just flow continously from my eyes. What a way to approve and to initiate His son.
2. Father just downloaded this motion picture to my mind of a baby who is walking around then suddenly falls into the mud coz he's still unstable in walking. Then the Father picked him up, saying "it's ok, it's alright now, lets just take a shower and get you clean. Alright now, lets give it another shot, here we go. This time I'll hold your hand tighter and I'll catch you before you fall into the mud. Yea, I'm leading you there, I'm allowing you to go through it. But I know you can, and even if you fall, I'll catch you in time. But if you decide to roll off my hands and fall into the mud, then we'll just have to go wash up or take a bathe and maybe try again tomorrow, yea?" The understanding of His love, just blew my mind for a minute. Just makes me more confident while walking through the muddy places of my life. I can do all things, through Christ who strenghtens me. It gives me a deeper understanding when I fall/sin, that Daddy is there to pick me up and cheer me on and say "well done, it's alright, lets try again." And with that understanding, I really wouldn't want to hurt His heart by continue to dwell in the mud.
I always forget to look at Daddy, and see myself in Him. My identity, in Him. My reflection when I look at Him. And I pray that I maybe a mirror, that He would scrub me and polish it clean to the point where He can truely see Himself reflected clearly in that mirror.
P.S. I only accomplished to read chapter 9-14. 6 Chapters!! My goal was to finish John. =.=" LOL
Comments
Aiseyyy
Am encouraged dude. When i come back, wanna go back Chennai again for a month anot? Kekeke, we try TWO months this time, hoho! MANGO JUICEEEE.
After coming back from Cambodia, I'll think about Chennai. xD
MAZA JUICEEE!!! LOL
Then walk all the way back to KL hoho.
OH YEA, MAZAAAAAAA.
i still remember Karthika. i wonder how the kids at the school are doing. :)
Ya, I still remember the pastor's daughter, so cute! I don't remember her name dang! Start with "J" wan. The one in the kindergarden.
Ya, Karthika "big cute eyes" first thing you said. lol...